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| Early Monday, November 20th, SRL Late Model driver Jeff Anthony, was involved in an ATV crash at the Glamis Sand Dunes. Jeff was critically injured after taking an estimated 60 foot fall. Another rider, Kevin Falvey, a close friend and EMT, witnessing a portion of the fall was able to administer medical help until he was transported by sand rail to a Marine Medivac. The initial flight was to an Arizona hospital that then had him airlifted to Kaiser Permanente Medical Center located in San Diego.
As of this morning, family and friends with him remain cautiously optimistic though Jeff currently remains in critical condition. All thoughts and prayers are graciously accepted and passed along to his family. A trust fund has been established to help the family with expenses during this difficult time.
Please make donations at any Washington Mutual branch:
Jeff Anthony Trust Fund
C/O Washington Mutual 01961516558
3100 Balfour Rd. Suite A
Brentwood, CA 94513
925-240-8426 Ext 3 |
Jeff Anthony Updates .: Community Cares Index- Jerry Anthony ( Pops)
Hi my son. Happy Birthday. Damn 39 years old. Miss you everyday. How about a visit one of these days again. Just a little stop by and say hi. I know you are doing fine up there in heaven, but damn I really miss hearing your voice and our hugs. If it was not for your racing videos and your interviews the time woud be unbearable at times. Just letting you know I am thinking of you. All my love, Dad - tracy
Happy Birthday Bro! Miss all your picking on me and all that good stuff. You are sure missed every where! Jesel is looking so handsome everytime I see him! Take care and see you some day! - Jason & Joey
Happy Birthday Jeff. We miss you more & more each day! It's still so hard to believe that your gone. - justin
another christmas comes and goes and my highlight is seeing jesel smile and tossing him around throwin some elbows!!he is an awesome kid .So my van gets towed from in front of my house yesterday courtesy of UCPD..cathy says they lift the van ,pull it on the trailer and then(little late here cuz) the cop notices your sticker on the durango.how do you know jeff,he says..hes our cousin,cathy says..he goes on apologizing ,sayin no hard feelings...hes your friend too!!his name is jeff..cathy called me and i had to laugh.cuz i knew thats exactly what you would do.miss ya cuz.im gonna go pay 151 bucks to the man,to get my beeter van out..keep laughin - Joan Morse
Reality has hit this holiday season and everything seems darker than last year when the shock of you dying kept us numb.
We lost Thelma (your pal) on the 26th of Nov. Louise is so sad--she goes around the house crying and looking for her sister. She would have been 15 on the 27th of January,08.
Jesel is so you--he is a jewel and has the best personality--he brings us so much joy and happiness. He is the crown jewel.
We do everything in your honor--and Jesel talks about you more now than ever. He has a great mom and had a great dad. - Peggy Mullins
11/27/07
Hey, Jeff honey. Another anniversary is upon us all. I'm doing better now, but I still have many moments. Several of us were at your home tonight for some food and to watch your "video" once again. Guess what, I only cried a little bit. Did you know that there is a new addition to your house in Byron? Probably do cause your on top of everything. Anyway it's a new puppy. Golden retriever named Lucy. Yep another female for ya. She's so cute and is a true puppy. Mali and Ed aren't too thrilled, but they'll get over it. Lucy's brother went to Jeff and Kim's home. Also an adorable puppy. Jesel is doing great and is you 100%. Look for Thelma. She should be up there with you now. You know how much I miss you, Love Mom - Jason & Joey
Hey Jeff, we still cant believe that you are gone. We we're at Dumont with Cindy & Jesel for Thanksgiving. Our thoughts are with Cindy, Jesel & your family today. We miss you everyday Jeff and wish that you were still here with us! We love you!! - Jerry Anthony ( Pops )
Hi my son, 2 years have passed and I can not believe you are gone still. I touch the pictures of you in this computer room everyday and talk to you everyday also. I miss your hugs and your smile, I miss you telling me everything is just peachy.I miss you not being here for Thanksgiving and you and the guys telling us about how much fun you were having at Glamis. I miss watching you race and sharing all those great times we had at all the races whether we won or lost. I miss seeing Jeff, Sean, Steve, Doug, Mark, Frankie and Anyhony and all of us being one great pit crew and part of our family. The wound of you missing away has subsided quite a bit now, but it will always be there until we are together again at the Race Track up there in Heaven. We do not see Cindy and Jesel very often, but we ( I ) really enjoy it when we do. Iam going to go to some SRL races next year I hope. I still believe a Perpetual Sportsmanship trophy in your honor and i will do my best to fullfill this part of my dream for you honor. That is about it for now, I love you with all my being and soul.
All My Love Forever and a day, Dad ( Pops ) - Joanne, John, Shayla & Morgan
I can't believe 2 years have passed without Jeff in them. John was just saying over the weekend how he missed Jeff and still can't believe he's not around to harrass and/or be harrassed by!
I know it hasn't been an easy way back for those closest to Jeff, but it seems like everyone is slowly but surely on an upswing.
Jesel is still the little wild man out in the dirt - sometimes I just watch him from my window and think of how proud Jeff would be of him- I already know Cindy is!
I know this will be a busy website today, so I hope everyone can look back on their memories of Jeff with a little bit of sadness that he's not here, but with a lot of laughter remembering him for his antics and what he meant to each of us.
We miss you Jeff.
Love, The Bannert's - The Fensler and SRL Family
To Pop, Peggy, Cindy, Jesel and all of Jeff’s family we are thinking of you on this second anniversary. Jeff is in our hearts forever and the picture of Jeff that you gave to Steve hangs in his office and reminds us everyday how lucky we were to know him. We send our love and support and wish all of you peace in your hearts. - Tim Eoff
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Wow, 2 years. We still miss you Jeff. Here are some pics for you guys to enjoy. They are of Jeff’s last race at Altamont. Oct. 8th 2005. They were taking at the meet and greet be fore the race. The little girl in the pics in my oldest daughter. She loved to watch Jeff race, cuz she knew he was fast.
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http://i40.photobucket.com/albums/e218/toofer07/IMG_0286-1.jpg - To you Iron Man 76.....Your Friends 11/20/2007
To you 76.....
Believe your friends in life- Are those you get to know- Those you're always glad to see- And sad to see them go- As friends our respect for you, you earned- And as a part of us rode with you- Through each and every turn- We shared joy with you in triumph- When you shined in victory lane- We have seen you carried from the wrekage- Where we felt some of your pain- Your life held for you such rich's- And you wore those treasures well- While you shared it all with others- Plus a little for yourself- Your stay with us was much to brief- Guess you're journey was through- May heaven be a better place- Now that it holds a man like you- You will always be a Champion- In our hearts and in our minds- We know you would have won it all- If the Lord had granted time- And the sport of Racing- Will always speak your name- For us the race continues...- But it will never be the same- We Salute you Jeff Anthony- For gracing our lives- To the special man who touched us- We sadley say goodbye- Goodbye Iron man 76...
You are always and forever in our hearts and thoughts... - Cindy
Jesel turns 6 today! It's been a rough couple of years but that little boy is the greatest kid a mother could ever ask for. He and I talk about his daddy all of the time. He told me to get him some motorcycle jammies. He says 'You know who I like mom!'... Travis Pestrana. Cute kid. Many things to be thankful for even in trajedy. -Cindy - Jerry Anthony
Hi my son, well one more month has gone by ( month # 22 ). I got a total clean bill of health this last week for my heart and am really excited about it. I still miss you everyday. Tracy is getting married on Oct. 13 in Livermore. It should be a great time for the whole family. A lot better time for me because I will be able to remember is one compared to Jays when I was all doped up after my radiation treatments. I would give anything to give you a huge hug and a kiss on your cheek. Well that is it from here. All m6 love, Dad (Pops) - Jerry Anthony
Good morning my son, been a while since we talked. 21 months since you left us. I miss you everyday and it will be this way until we meet at that big race track up in heaven.i look at your picture that your aunt Joyce had done for me ( you looking over us at your memorial) everyday and touch it just to let you know I am thinking of you. We went to Pismo Beach to see grandpa and walked the beach to the dunes and I remembered the times you went down there. There were at least a thousand RV's and toy haulers there. I could just picture you being there and having a blast.
The race crew has stopped working together. Last years tribute to you was it for them. Everyone is doing his own thing. Frankie called me the other day and we caled for quite a while. Had a few laughs.
Have not talked to Cindy in quite a while, but we e mail each other. We are doing fine.
I will not be going to any races this season but plan a going to some of them next year.It still was to painful.
Well that is it for now. I love you.
All My Love,Dad (Pops) - Peggy Mullins
It's been awhile, huh?? I've been busy the past 4 months or so. Jesel is just about finished with his first year of school. I might add that he's doing fantastic. He's such a cute little guy and he is "you". He really makes me laugh and, at times, he has your silly personality. I saw Sean on Mother's Day and it was good to see him. Bannert just finished doing some work on the house (remember, the one where you and your friends used to drink beer at!!). He does great work. And still I found a few flaws. He said that he heard that I'm a professional "nit-picker". I guess now it's confirmed. I wish you were here. I miss you and your hectic racing schedule. Talk at 'ya soon. Love, Mom. P.S. Mali, Ed and Simba are doing good. Everytime I go out to Byron I bring treats for the dogs. Mali greets me with a ball in her mouth. Belive it or not she can still run after the ball. - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Hi my son, well a little over 18 months since you passed away. Still think of you everyday. Some days are good like when I put your old races from Altamont on DVD's instead of VCR tapes and laugh at your interviews and how you made it always look easy making your passes to get into the lead. Then there are the sad days when I just wish we could just talk nothing special just talk. I miss seeing you and going to the races with you. I thought I could get a trophy made in your name but I find it to difficult to do and find a place down here that can make it. We have a picture of your shadow from the memorial service over our computer desk and I look at it very day and see you watching over us. We are coming up to the Bay Area for Fathers Day and taking Cindy and Jesel, Scott and Michelle and Tracy to the A's game. It should be a blast. Uncle Bruce is having a retirement dinner that Friday night also and then heading back home Sunday night. That is about it from here.
All my love, Dad (Pops) - Rich & Linda Struhm
Thanks Jeff
I stumbled back to this website as I was looking at parts for my Samurai project. You would like it.I'm sure you led me to this site tonite. I have been kinda feeling sorry for myself, working a lot of OT and not seeing Linda as much as I would like. Then I realized that I had nothing at all to complain about. Thanks for putting things back into perspective. We all miss you a lot!!! Cindy...if you read this Linda and I are fine. We have the house up near Yosemite now and I get up there on weekends. We will really try to stop by sometime. We would like to see how the house came out. Send us an email if you get time.rstruhm@aol.com. God Bless Everyone - Cyle Coatney
hey was up bro. been a long time sence u left a message and just wanted to let you know i did not foget about you.. i was out last weeken helping cindy clean up the old house. man would u have some words to say about there paint job. i also im useing your jet skis man though things are fast i told cindy i get first dips on them!! lol well the pink on that on ski was nice but i had to trick it out it was out dated check it out now. well miss u man!!! never forget you!
 - Jerry Anthony
Hi Jeff, just a little note to say hi. SRL starts this weekend. It seems eerie that you will not be there. Will try and make some of the races, but I am not looking forward to them. Still trying to find a trophy place around here. Oh well I will keep on trying. Still have days when I am really down and missing you terribly.Cindy and Jesel are doing fine as I know you know. Sure miss we could make it up to see one of his baseball games. To much medically ( doctors appointments) going on still. 17 months now since you left us. How about one more conversation just for old times sake. That is about it for now. All My Love, Dad (Pops) - Jerry Anthony
Hi my son, sitting here at the computer and realizing its benn 16 monthe since you left us. Missing you everyday and hope you are still racing up there in heaven. Watched some of your old Altamont races and got a great kick out of your racing and seeing how easy you passed all those cars. Your interviews were also a big kick in the butt. damn I wish we could just give each other a big hug and tell each other how much we love one another. Thinking about all those Monday nights working on the race car and teasing one another and laughing at each other. I really will treasure those times for the rest of my life.Race season starts in may this year with a lot more traveling and some of it out of state (Las Vegas and Colorado). Still trying to find a place to get your trophy made. Well that is about it for now. All my love, Dad (Pops) - Jerry Anthony
Hi my son, just a little note sitting here thinking about you and feeling down. Whale poop is close to how low I am feelng today. Going to go workout and hope that I can stop wishing I could just have one more dream with just you and I talking together. Nothing is particular we would be talking about just talking. The new SRL is starting up May 5th a lot more traveling and some of it out of state. I hope it stay as friendly as it used to be. I am trying to find a trophy place here to have a trophy made in your honor it will be called the Jeff Anthony Sportsmanship perpetual Trophy. Have not talked to the guys in a while so will try and give them a call tonight. Well that is all that I can think of to tell you today. God bless and will write again. All my love forever, Dad (Pops) - Tracy Christian
Hey Bro!
Just wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday. We ALL sure miss you. Wish you were here so you can tease me like usual. Love you lots. - Sean Holifield
Happy birthday friend. It's been a long time since I've posted anything on here. It's been very difficult trying to except the fact that your gone. Besides Bruno, you are the only other friend I've ever lost.I can tell you from down here it really sucks! Cindy is doing good she didn't have a very good November as I'm sure she told you. Jesel is becoming you so we get to look forward to calling someone Richard Cranium again when he gets older! I haven't seen your pops or mom in a while but they know we love them. Our tribute season finally over! It's amazing on how fast some people can move on with their lives when someone passes. I would walk around the pits and look around at all the competitors and think to myself "Do you people realize who isn't with us anymore"? I don't think some people understood what you brought to the track every week. Joey did a great job this year and he had our luck also! I'm thinking that was the last year any of us will be involved with racing. Probably just as well, it will never be the same for the crew without you. I went to Century Wheel today to get a new lug nut cover for my Alcoa wheels and they asked when I purchased them so they could get the part number so I told them that they were bought from Auto Discount Center, they looked in the computer and there was a copy of your invoice - brought back some memories. I have a lot of racing items up in my office along with the picture that you had made for us before you left and not a day goes by that I'm not telling one of my customers a story about something in the picture or about your championship helmet or just how good of friends we were. Well once again I spell like crap and Wendy is still up so I better have her proof read this. Not a day goes by that I'm not reminded how much I miss you (could be the tattoo on my arm!) and wish you were here. I will talk to you soon my friend. Happy birthday.
Love, Sean - Jerry Anthony
Happy birthday Geoffrey,38 years old. We sure wish were to celebrate it with us. We had Jesel and Cindy down here for a couple of daze. He sure reminds me of you when you were 5 years old. Very inventive and always thinking of new ways to play cars and winning. We took him to the Living Desert, childrens museum and golfing (putting). What a blast. Damn I love him and Cindy so much. This is really a tough day. Still wishing you were here and telling me everything is just peachy. B. P. just passed away, so he should be up there racing now too. Kick his ass for me on the track.Well Jeff that is about it for now. Take care and Happy Birthday. All my love,Dad (Pops) - Peggy Mullins
1/17/07 - Happy Birthday Jeff. Today is your 38th birthday. In my heart I know you are here with me as I am with you. I receivd a note from Anna who lives without dialysis now because of you. I am so happy for her and I'm glad you helped her out, but I would have much preferred that you came home walking and talking on November 27, 2005. Since that wasn't to be I must enjoy you thru your son. He has so much of your personality and mannerisms that it is eerie. I wish I could take your place. I'm too old to be celebrating birthdays and you have so many more to celebrate. I love you, Jeff honey. Mom - Jason & Joeylee
Happy Birthday Jeff! We both miss you tons. - Cyle Coatney
hey was up bud.... i was just sitting here at the comp and see you pi on the background and though i would say hi. well still missing u man! later - Peggy Mullins
Merry Christmas Jeff honey. Had a great Xmas eve with your wonderful son sitting like a king with presents all around him in the chair and on the floor. I sure wish I had my camera. He looked like King Tut. Cindy "O" made me a shadow box in your memory. It is beautiful and, of course, made me cry which put me in a "not so good mood". Your Cindy made me a calandar with pages filled with pictures of you and Jesel. Well, I guess today is my day to shine (or not shine). It's the big 60 for me and I sure wish you were here to "raz" me about it. Going to your home today and I'm sure Jesel will have something to say.
I miss you everyday. Take care of Bailey. All my love, Mom. - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Good morning my son, well here we are the second Christmas since you passed away.We had a great Christmas at aunt Joyce's and Daves around 30 family were there. Cindy and Jesel had a great time and they are coming down here for a couple of days.Really looking forward to having them here. Just not the same party with you not being there. Going to Jay and Nathalie's for Christmas should also be fun. Peanut is so cute.Uncle Bruce is retiring on Jan.1st and I really proud of him. How about one more visit just for old times sake. Sure do miss those. Still I am dreaming about you but miss our conversations. Oh well.I guess it will be this way forever. Missing you that is. Well that is about it for now talk to on your birthday. ALL MY LOVE,DAD - justin
so today as im drivin over the richmond bridge thinkin about jeff,i was askin jeff to give me some of his driving skills..the man is an artist behind the wheel...and all the sudden one of my favorite PENNYWISE songs comes on the radio Bro Hymn...
heres the song..and how i belted it out....
To our best friend, present past and beyond
Though you weren't with us too long
Life is the most precious thing we could lose
While you were here the fun was never ending
Laugh a minute was only beginning
jeff anthony, this one's for you
Ever get the feeling you can't go on
Just remember whose side it is that you're on
You've got friends with you till the end
If you're ever in a tough situation
We'll be there with no hesitation
Brotherhood's our rule we cannot bend
When you're feeling too close to the bottom
You know who it is you can count on
Someone will pick you up again
We can conquer anything together
All of us are bonded forever
If you die I die that's the way it is
To our friends, present past and beyond
To all those who weren't with us too long
Life is the most precious thing you can lose
While you were here the fun was never ending
Laugh a minute was only beginning
Jeff, my brother, this one's for you
and you made me tear up bastard..but i feel maybe im a little better driver than yesterday - Dianne
11/28/06: I couldn't bring myself to posting anything yesterday. It was just too sad of a day and I couldn't figure out what to say. I've read some of the things people posted and it makes me hurt inside to see how much certain people are hurting. The one that touched me the most, funny as it is, is the one Cindy wrote. Of course it's touching because she's the one who lost the most in this terrible ordeal, but there are so many things in there she said that people just take for granted until something bad happens to make them realize they shouldn't. True colors of friends and family come out when tragedy strikes, you realize that people come and go in your life whether you want them to or not, your close family becomes so much more important, you see that putting certain things in life off just doesn't make sense because you can't take it for granted things will remain the same in the future. Nothing is certain in life and you really have to appreciate those you have around and love them unconditionally. We all make mistakes in life, it's what we learn from them that counts the most in the long run. I know you're still hanging around, I can really feel you around sometimes, and it makes me smile when I sense you there, saying something smart like always. It'll be hard for everyone when the time comes that you're not able to pop in anymore, so we'll cherish the times you do while you still can. We all miss you SO much!! Love you...D - justin
well a year has passed,i realize how much of an influence you were on me more and more.I feel graced to be part of your friendship and family..im glad the last time we talked about family you had such a amile on you'r face talkin about seeing scott at gramps and grams party..wich at the time seemed odd,because ,well you know how brothers are..im really sad i missed that party.i really miss you too.i hate drivin by your shop ..and really want to put it out there that we need to tag that ugly building with a huge cal trans orange 76..it would really make me feel better than seeing that empty ugly steel shed sitting there.keep throwin your love down on us cuz ,shinin on cindy and jesel.oh and i got the tattoo i always told you to get.. for you..spark plug with wings JAR and 76..ill add the checkered flag later.... - josh whitfield
My Boi... Dam a yr With out u in my/our life.. just seems i think everyday about you one prayer before bed and then two each days at the races... just remembering how i would ride my bike from my dads shop to come see you and get a fat smack in the head.. We always be laughin at you makin fun of "RUT FURD" sendin him places and he be half way there then you sayin get your ass back here and he get all pissy. No matter what friend i would bring to come meet you they would always walk out with a smile on their faces sayin " That guy is awesome" not even knowin who Jeff Anthony was.Never seen anybody eat so much K F C in their life.. We always come over to offer to take you to EL PATIO your answer always no ew mexican food... My phone calls the first thing you would say to me is " WHERE'S YOUR MOM?" ha ha my response wheres your hot wife cindy.= - )....( always some kinda comment about my mom).. Wen in your shop i would always admire the ol white and green 76 L M and my question for you would be y is my dads name so small on your window?? ha ha ... from the day you built my minicup.. to the day you found me a street stock and helped me build it..now to the day i am building a latemodel with the touch of your angels hands in mine......Always doin it your way... everybody would say " dam i never seen any body do it that way" But we showed them... Jeffs way is always fast no matter what people think about how things are done...To this day the great butler built seat you gave me along with your helmet will ride in the cars i drive my whole life not a chance to miss the feel and love of you riding with me in my touch and in my head knowing your up there yellin at me because i went high when i should have went low or the opposite... The times we would be hangin out and Becky would call me and you said ooo we will hook up someday you makin fun of her and i.so many memories will stay in my heart of you and i will always do things jeff anthony style no matter what ppl say... Cindy/ Jesel..Hearing your doing better brings a big smile to my heart.. knowing your being the best mom a son could have and living life to the fullest, jesel is very blessed to have you through this... hope all is going well with you and family.. get a hold of me by textin or anything.. Dad, mom, and family very miss you (916) 223-0730....... supportin JA FO LYF -*FO EVA*- - Joeylee
Wow i cant believe he's been gone for a year, it's still so hard to believe that he's gone! I miss his remarks and nicknames he would give everyone.... I miss you Jeff - To you 76.....Your Friends
Believe your friends in life-
Are those you get to know-
Those you're always glad to see-
And sad to see them go-
As friends our respect for you, you earned-
And as a part of us rode with you-
Through each and every turn-
We shared joy with you in triumph-
When you shined in victory lane-
We have seen you carried from the wrekage-
Where we felt some of your pain-
Your life held for you such rich's-
And you wore those treasures well-
While you shared it all with others-
Plus a little for yourself-
Your stay with us was much to brief-
Guess you're journey was through-
May heaven be a better place-
Now that it holds a man like you-
You will always be a Champion-
In our hearts and in our minds-
We know you would have won it all-
If the Lord had granted time-
And the sport of Racing-
Will always speak your name-
For us the race continues...-
But it will never be the same-
We Salute you Jeff Anthony-
For gracing our lives-
To the special man who touched us-
We sadley say goodbye-
Goodbye Iron man 76... - Cyle Coatney
wow hard to belive thats it is a year all ready. theres not one day that goes by that i dont find my self needing jeff just needing to talk to him to find out how this goes on or if he wanted to go riding. or just to bug him at work. i always ask my self what if he pulled through what it would be like today with him here. he would probly just be sick of me calling him on he nextel and asking him stupid shit. well miss you man. always and will never stop representing you name and number one my car's - Cindy
11/27/06
A year ago today I let go of his hand. At the time I worried if we’d made the right decision. If he wasn’t able to come back at 100% or even close I knew in my heart that he wouldn’t want to come back but the doubt was still there. It was a decision no one should ever have to make. Jeff let me know we had made the right ‘choice’ by letting go so quickly. A memory that will never leave me… He is forever and always on my mind and in my thoughts. Although he used the # 76 many years before he began racing at Altamont in ’97 that is the time it became his number. It is reminding me of him at every opportunity by popping up in the strangest of places and I’ve heard the same from others. A year later I haven’t let go of him although the year of firsts is ‘officially’ over. I have learned that the tears eventually do stop only to start up again. I’ve learned that sometimes when you feel like you should be crying you can’t and sometimes when you want to stop crying it’s impossible. I’ve learned that although he and I had made the decision not to spend the money on ‘those’ vet bills it’s even harder to walk away without your pet. A month before this anniversary his favorite dog had just about given up. I couldn’t walk away without her… unlike his accident it was something I could control. I didn’t feel it was time to lose her yet nor did I think Jesel and I could put up with Eddie without Mali. I’ve learned that he really did know what he was doing when he finished the barn and the driveway before the house. As though some how he knew what his family would need. I’ve learned that it’s the simple things that make all of the difference. It’s a card in the mail, a voicemail, a text and an e-mail saying ‘Hi’. I’ve learned that smiling really does make a difference. I’ve learned that people will talk no matter what you’ve done, haven’t done, been through or lost. It’s just what people do. I’ve learned that no matter how hard you wish for something you can’t change the past. I’ve learned that although everyday I wish it was me and not him I’m still here. I’ve learned that you have to enjoy the now because in reality it is truly all you have when it’s all said and done. I guess that’s why it’s called the present. I’ve learned that a child can be the only reason you get out of bed everyday. I’ve learned that although Jesel only had 4 years with his dad he has so much of Jeff in him, good and bad. I’ve learned that even when you’re secure in your comfort zone things will change. I’ve learned that no matter how many hours I put into the job a year ago it didn’t save me now that I can’t put those same hours in. I’ve learned that a job is not everything and doesn’t keep you warm at night. I’ve learned that being alone can be the worst feeling in life. I’ve learned that no matter what, your home is the most important ‘thing’ in life. I’ve learned that ‘home’ is whatever you hold dearest to your heart. Jesel, our family and close friends are what I consider my home. I’ve learned that death affects everyone differently. Some have left our lives for their own reasons, others have stuck around ensuring we know that we’re loved and still others have become part of our family because of the accident. Although Jeff didn’t know he’d be the cause of the dust he had the smarts, knowledge or intuition to tell me who would be around when the dust settled and who wouldn’t. It’s uncanny how right he was. Although most days it’s just the two of us, Jesel and I have been so blessed with the support system we know is there. It brings a smile to my lips thinking of some of the people that have stepped up and become a part of our extended family and are helping to ensure he remembers his dad and grows up to be half the man he was. As I often do, I checked my horoscope today. And it said…If your feelings were a bank, you might be feeling just a wee bit overdrawn right now. Remember that while it's always nice to feel a little nostalgia for days of yore, you're not helping yourself by staying stuck in the past. I’ve learned that no matter how many times you think it or say it, it’s still hard to remember that he died and I didn’t. I’ve learned that life really does go on no matter what or who is lost… - Peggy Mullins
11/27/06, 10:31 AM. I LOVE YOU JEFF AND MISS YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN EXPRESS. REST IN PEACE. - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Hi my son, well here it is 1 year since you left us. I am trying to think of what to say in this letter and nothing really is coming to my brain. I am numb. I will be out on the patio at 10:31 and will pop a Coors Light in your honor.Jeff Jenkins and some of the gang came down to Glamis this year again and it just was not the same. Aunt Joyce took that shadow picture of you at the memorial service and got it framed with a drawing of you. Totally awesome. It gives me chills everytime I look at it. I feel your spirit especially today. I would give anything for just one more hug and to kiss on the cheek the way we always said good bye. I am playing my Indian flute in tribute to you it is very comforting to play it and dream of you. To my family I love all of you and you have helped me get through this very trying and painful year.Without your support and love I do not think I could of made it.To Marsha thanks my bud for everything you do for me. To Peggy and the Gobel side of the family I feel your pain also and offer my sorrow and grief to all of you. To Cindy and Jessel I love you very much and just hope some day the pain will subside for you both. Cindy, Jeff was your soul mate and I know he loved you with all his heart. He will always be by yourside side To Dan and Joannie and your family I feel your pain also and hope that the pain is fially starting to go away. To Jeff Jenkins, Sean,Steve, Mark,Doug and Anthony I love you guys and will always consider you part of my extended family and will cherish all those great times at the track together. To all of you that have written, thank you for all your thoughts and prayers. Each article was wonderful to read and I will cherish each of your thoughts forever. All my love,Dad, Pops (Jerry) Anthony - Laurie Seitz (Moilanen)
I can't believe it has been 1 year today since Jeff passed. This morning I found myself dressing in orange and black and thinking of all the funny stuff Jeff ever did.
Pops, Marsha, Cindy, Jessel, Tracy and the rest of the extended Anthony family my thoughts are with everyone today. Jeff was one of a kind and unforgetable.
Miss you Jeff! - John, Joanne, Shayla & Morgan
Well, today is November 27, 2006. It seems so unreal that a year has passed without Jeff in it with all of us. Being neighbors and friends, I know what a long, hard road Cindy, Jesel, and their families have had to travel this past year, but the strength and support they have been given by so many people really helped to get them through their grief. I know there are still tough days ahead, but I hope they will lessen for everyone. Our family still talks about Jeff often, and more so than not, we just laugh at a memory of something he said or did - he was such a wise-ass! But we sure did love him for it! Hmmm.....I think Jesel is following his daddy's footsteps in that manner! Watching Jesel out on his quad or his bike is just like seeing a mini-me of Jeff - balls out and driving it like he stole it!
Cindy and family, our thoughts are with you today, and hope the day isn't too awful to get through. As always - if you need anything, just holler out the window - we'll hear 'ya!
We miss you Jeff!!
Love, The Bannert's - The Fensler Family
Our thoughts and prayers are with your family today and always. - Linda Gobel
CINDY & JESEL
GOOD SEENING YOU AND JESEL LAST WEEK FOR DINNER.LOOKING FORWARD TO SEE YOU AGAIN CHRISTMAS EVE.
HARD TO BELIEVE THE YEAR HAS PASSED WE DO MISS YOU JEFF.
HEARD THIS SONG BY RASCAL FLATTS
AND WANTED TO SHARE IT WITH YOU ,BECAUSE THIS IS HOW WE FEEL FOR YOU
WE HOPE THE DAYS COME EASY AND THE MOMENTS PASS SLOW AND EACH ROW LEADS YOU WHERE YOU WANT TO GO AND IF YOUR FACED WITH THE CHOICE AND YOU HAVE TO CHOOSE WE HOPE YOU CHOOSE THE ONE THAT MEANS THE MOST TO YOU AND IF ONE DOOR OPENS THEN ANOTHER CLOSE WE HOPE YOU KEEP ON WALKING TILL YOU FIND A WINDOW IF ITS COLD OUTSIDE SHOW THE WORLD THE WARMTH IN YOUR SMILE. BUT MORE THAN ANYTHING, MORE THAN ANYTHING...
OUR WISH FOR YOU IS THAT THIS LIFE BECOMES ALL THAT YOU WANT TO
YOUR DREAMS STAY BIG AND YOUR WORRIES STAY SMALL YOU NEVER NEED TO CARRY MORE THAN YOU CAN HOLD AND WHILE YOUR OUT THERE GETTIN WERE YOU GETTIN TO WE HOPE YOU KNOW SOMEBODY LOVES YOU AND WANTS THE SAME THING TO.
WE HOPE YOU NEVER LOOK BACK BUT YOU NEVER FORGET ALL THE ONES WHO LOVE YOU IN THE PLACE YOU LIVE I HOPE YOU ALWAYS FORGIVE AND YOU NEVER REGRET AND YOU HELP SOMEBODY EVERY CHANCE YOU GET..OOH YOU FIND GODS GRACE IN EVRY MISTAKE AND ALWAYS GIVE MORE THAN YOU TAKE BUT MORE THAN ANYTHING MORE THAN ANYTHING
YEAH THIS IS MY WISH FOR YOU WE HOPE YOU KNOW SOMEBODY LOVES YOU
MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS BE BIG
WE LOVE YOU
AUNT LINDA & UNCLE RICH AKA (BUCK) - Jerry Anthony
Hi my son, here at home wishing you could call me and tell me you, Jinx and Falvey are on your way over for dinner but knowing that will never happen again. Damn I miss those times.I am trying to heal the wound of missing you but it will not go away. I know it will last this way forever and understand that but it sure can kicks my butt. Watched your memorial DVD and it was great to hear your voice and see your childhood pictures again. Take care and will write to you on Monday your 1 year anniversary. All my love, Dad - Anonmyous
When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes, all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry, the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things, we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,
and each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
that an Angel came and called my name, and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready, in heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind, all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye,
for all life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for, so much yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, just even for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized, that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories, would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me, from His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity, and all I've promised you".
Today for life on earth is past, but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last,
and since each day's the same day, there's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful, so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things, you knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven and now at last you're free.
So won't you take my hand and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart,
for every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart. - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
To the Fensler family, thank you for the note. You are a great family and Marsha and I really apreciate all your love and support you have given to our entire family over this last year. My personal love to each and everyone one of you from the bottom of my heart. You are great friends that I will cherish forever. To the entire SRL crew thank you and may you all have great Thanksgiving.
All my love Pops(Jerry)Anthony - Peggy Mullins
Thank you to the Fensler and SRL family. What would we have done without you. I couldn't sleep last night. Kept watching the clock and remembering what I was doing one year ago today. Jeff honey, I miss you. I know you're at peace, but I would still rather have you here with Cindy, Jesel and your whole extended family. Love, Mom - Cindy
I didn't write this but when I read it I thought it was fitting for what we have gone through and lost in this past year...As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin. ~anonymous~ - The Fensler and SRL Family
As the first year anniversary is approaching our thoughts have been with the Anthony family and friends as we know this has been a very hard year, you have endured the pain and grief that at times am sure was unbearable. We all miss Jeff so much, not just because of his humor and quick wit but for the wonderful and giving person he was. The SRL family misses him on the track and even more off the track as he set an example for all the drivers. Jeff was the Iron Man of the SRL as they all knew if Jeff was next to them he would drive them clean and most of the time would give them that driving lesson on how to win!!!
Personally, I have peace knowing that Jeff is happy and peaceful and that his family although heartbroken is strong and have shown dignity and grace through this difficult year. Love to Jesel and Cindy you are in our thoughts and prayers, Pop’s and Peggy we love you and have peace in knowing how much everyone loved Jeff. To Jeff’s crew you are the BOMB (as my son Thomas would say) I know it was hard on all of you to race without Jeff but because of all of you, Joey Zampa and his team we learned what courage is. To all the JEFF ANTHONY family and friends know that we are thinking of Jeff and he won’t be forgotten.
Love and Prayers to all of you,
Barbara Fensler and the entire SRL Family - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Hi my son, well just got home from Hawaii. Thanks for the visit there. I hope you were only kidding me that you will not give me anymore visits until we meet in heaven and that you will be waiting for me at the track. On the way home on the plane I was sitting next to this guy and his family and we started talking I asked where he lived and he said Bakersfield and I told him that you used to race at Mesa Marin and he said he lived in the homes right next to the track and asked what your name was and I told him your name and he said he used to come to the track when ever the SRL would race there and would route for you and liked how you raced.It truly is a very small word. I told him how you passed away and he said he goes down to Glamis every year for the dune buggy races down there.well I can not believe it is almost 1 year since you left us. I still feel that part of my soul is cut away and will always be missing. Sitting here in the computer room wishing I could just touch you and give you a big hug and kiss the way we used to after everytime we saw each other. Nathalie and Kennah are here for couple of days and this morning Kennah and I fell asleep together while I was rubbing her back the way I used to do for you. I woke with a startle dreaming how I did that with you.I got some pictures from Gina McNeil the other day of you and Scott as babies. I do not have any of you both and will treasure them for ever. Feeling really great now and hope that it stays this way for a while. MArsha and I could really use for break. Well that is about it for now. I will write you a note on your fist years anniversary. God bless you forever and a day. All my love,Dad - Cyle Coatney
man its hard to belive that it is coming up to one year seen like just yesterday i was calling him on the nextel asking him questions about my car or if i should do this to it for if he had this or if he could stop bu ater work and fix somthing b/c after all he would say is all you rednecks do is nigger rig shit. this past weeken i entered my car in the goodguys show with 2 of the jeff anthony 76 stickers on the showing it off proudly. well cone to find out i won a award and got to park in the winners circly and one the preachers award. you jeff helped me out alot on my car with getting me the motor and tranny and doing my rearend and what not and with out him i dont thing i could of got it on(and with out the help of my dad) but i though that the right thinh to do would be to dedicate this award to jeff because with out him i dont thing i could of done it. i miss ya man. theres not a time i go up to you place and now walk through the shop or just hang out in it and thing of you. then after im done i help out cindy with what ever she needs! miss you man!!!
[IMG]http://i41.photobucket.com/albums/e267/65lt1chevelle/000_0471.jpg[/IMG] - Info for Lara
Yes it sounds like the same Geoff you think it is. He purchased the buisness from Chuck. And Geoff's buisness was called Automtive Discount Center in Fremont. If you scroll down the page there are pictures of him and you can see for yourself. He is very much missed by so many. - Lara O.
Is this the same Jeff (Geoffry) that used to work @ Chuck's Discount Auto in Fremont? I decided to look him up and came across this site. He was such a nice guy. I remember him as super shy. I used to have such a crush on him. The last time I had seen him was back in Livermore @ some restaurant in the mid-90's. I don't think he remembered me.
I am in great shock.
Sorry to hear of your loss,
Lara O. - Dave Massa
Hey buddy,
Cindy's last post actually made me cry. I know, I'm a big sissy. I can't tell you how many times I think of you, every day when I drive home and pass Altamont, when I spoke to Rich Moore about you, driving through town and coming up on another truck with a memorial sticker on it, looking at my quad and thinking, I should sell this, I couldn’t bear for my family to go through what your family is, The sad part is I haven’t even "driven it like I stole it" yet. Yeah I know now I’m an even bigger sissy. I just wish you were here to call me that. Take care, oh yeah I put you on my myspace. Now all of my friends and family know of you and how many lives you’ve touched in life and after you were gone.
Dave - Cindy
10/10/06 Today is Jesel's 5th Birthday! He woke up with a smile on his face and started talking about his dad. In the car this morning he talked about how his dad would give him gummy worms at the end of Vasco on their way to his school and how he’d eat them all up! He talked about his 4th birthday party where his dad helped him open his presents. He said ‘Now that daddy’s gone you have to help me open my presents mom.’ And then he laughed. He said his daddy took care of us but that he didn’t take care of himself. Last night he asked me what his dad sounded like. He’s still trying to figure it all out and I know exactly how he feels… - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
I hit the send button early and here are my final thoughts on this your 10th month in passing away. The pain would have been to much to bear. We are not sure if we can ever go back to Altamont again just because of those great times we had together there. I will not know until next year what races i will go to until the schedule comes out. Your memorial race at Madera we will attend for sure and with Stockton closing that only leaves Madera and Altamont left open for next race season. It will be interesting to see how it all plays out. Well that is about it for now. Always remember you are always in my thoughts and prayers and will always be mt beloved son and missed forever and a day. All my love Dad - Jerry Anthony
Hi Jeff,well 10 months have passed since you left us. I still miss you dee. Everyday when I go by one of your pictures (whether it is in the computer room, inthe hallway or in the great room) I feel a deep sadness of not being able to hear your voice and see you. I have finally been cleared by the heart doctor to travel. Marsha and I are heading up to the bay area for a fire dept. retirement dinner over the weekend and will finally get to see Cindy and Jesel on Sunday. i still think of the last day you called and I was a sleep and did not get to talk to you for that last time. That day will be in my soul forever. I miss having my dreams with and about you. That last visit you made to me to tell me to just relax and go thru my heart surgery was a huge help to me and a great comfort. I wish we could have some more of those conversatoins but realize that it probably will not happen anymore. i sure could use one more everything is just peachy. I am feling really great now physically and improving mentally too. The memorial race that was this last wekend at Altamont sounds like a huge success but I could not bring myself to go just knowing you were not go to be there physically just spiritually. All those great memories would be to tough for marsha and I to bear. The memorial race at Madrea kicked the hell out of Marsha and I and we felt it was going to - Cindy
9/27/06 Ten Months later…A day doesn’t go by that I don’t think of him and wonder why this had to happen. Jesel’s eyes sparkle when he talks about his dad. He started kindergarten this past month and is doing well. As expected he’s made friends in the short time that he has been there. He turns 5 in a couple of weeks and his party is all he can talk about. Sunday in Jeff’s honor Altamont Motorsports Park held a fitting memorial race in their late model division. It was the first time that I’d been back to the track since Jeff last raced there. Even with the changes that were made it was difficult to face the memories. The Altamont will forever and always be a reminder of him. Joey Zampa ran awesome race and finished just as Jeff did the last time he was there in 2nd with a great car and a big smile! Before the last race, to see people bidding on the door that once hung on Jeff’s car (donated by David Misco) was surreal. That money was donated to the Humane Society in Jeff’s memory and our own Centerville Radiator/Allied (Carol, Jim and Bill) became the proud owners of it. As Jesel sat on my lap practicing waving the green flag the bids came in for the diecast replicas of Jeff’s car and the hood signed by the drivers and pit crews in the pits (donated by the 20 car of Rod Winfrey). I am still in shock at the amount of bidders and the amount of money that was donated to Jesel’s trust/college fund. Years ago Jeff and I would tease Zachary Days about who his favorite driver was. We’d get a kick out it when he would yell Jeff Anthony even though Aaron Days #27, his dad, competed with Jeff! He and his family were the highest bidders on one of Jeff’s diecast cars and Kenny Sheppard won the hood with a winning bid of $2500! What still gives me chills is the fact that Kenny won the hood and immediately gave it to Zachary. By the look on Zachary’s face even he was shocked that it was given to him. I’m sorry to say that I’m not sure who won the 2nd diecast. Wayne, Kenny, Al and Willie allowed Jesel up in the flag stand to wave the green flag for the start of the 76 lap late model main event. He was excited about it although from the pictures shown on faninturn4.com he looks sad. Once I picked him up and he did the real green flag, he smiled! Rod Qualls was generous enough to allow Mike David to run his car in the memorial race. Mike put the #76 on it, ran the heck out of it and brought it back to victory lane. Many of us in the stands felt as though Jeff were driving it the whole way. It was like the old Sportsman class he’d won 3 of his championships in. He got out front fairly early on and stayed out front through multiple cautions! Once out of the car Mike with Rod’s blessing handed Jesel the trophy and flag made in his father’s memory. Mike and Rod also donated all of their winnings to Jesel! Although that night Jesel didn’t show the excitement he felt, the next day he asked if he could run over to his friend’s house and show the trophy as well as the 76 flag to them. He also requested to take the flag to school to show his friends… He is very proud of them both and the sparkle returns to his eyes when he talks about that race. The love and support felt for one little boy was and is amazing. It brings tears to my eyes and warmth to my heart. - Dianne (aka Loser) Santos
9/21/06: Hey Jeff! It's been a long time since I've posted anything on here but it hasn't been that long since I've talked to you. It's so funny to me how things in life work out. So many things now remind me of you. There's a real estate sign I pass everyday on my way to work on Marsh Creek that lists 76 acres for sale. Then there's a credit card that has the numbers 0076 as a series on it. Things that I never would have even noticed before and now I can't pass anything without relating it somehow to you. I swear you're around sometimes. I can hear you making your typical comments on things. Especially when my car broke down that day. I was busy yelling at you (out loud) for not being around when I needed you for my car for once. I could hear your smart a$$ comments. I had to laugh. Then when I listened to someone about where to take my car and they had it for a week and couldn't figure it out and ended up taking it to the dealership and got it back the same day, I could hear you asking me how stupid I was for not doing that in the first place. I still have your pictures up at work and look at them often and think about funny times. Life hasn't been easy since you've gone, but I know you know that. I know you're still watching everyone wondering what the hell happened since you left. But we've all moved on in our own ways, trying to make our lives happy as much as possible. The girls enjoy when Frankie takes them to see Jesel and they get to play with him. They talk about you for days after coming back from your place. It's cute. Well, take care up there and watch over everyone! Love and miss you lots!! - Peggy Mullins
9/18 - Just got back from San Diego. I want to tell you about the "remembrance" day. Weather was perfect not a cloud in the sky. Becky was there as she was the third day in the hospital and Belan also. She was with us on that Sunday morning to comfort us and saw that Jesel got your hand print and locks of your hair. The ceremony was very emotional for everyone there including me. I really cried for you. Two donor recipients spoke-one had received two lungs. She had suffered with cystic fibrosis for years and last year she walked in a 13 mile marathon. Truly amazing. Each family was given a long stemmed red rose with a ribbon attached with their loved ones' name on it. A donors family donated a 1 ton memorial stone inscribed as follows "WE HONOR THE HEROES WHO DONATED THEIR ORGANS AND TISSUES. In their last hour they gave a lifetime". This stone is a permanent marker at the Greenwood Memorial Park & Mortuary in San Diego. If anyone is ever in the San Diego area I would encouage you to take a trip to the memorial park to see it. It's outside just east of the Sallie Lyn Chapel. Now I have a place to leave a memento in your memory. Hopefully I can go down there once a year. After I said your name in front of the stone I placed the "rose" in front of the stone then was given a beautiful bronze donor metal in your honor. After all the families has introduced their loved ones 30 white doves were released. These doves circled in the sky twice before they finally flew away. It was truly beautiful. You are in my heart always. Love, Mom - remembering Jeff,his family,loved ones,and friends
IF I KNEW
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
And pray The Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
That I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
And call you back forjust one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video each action and word
So I could play them back each day.
If I knew it would be the last time
I could spare an extra minute,
To stop and say "I love you"
Instead of assuming you would KNOW it.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
I was sure we'd have so many more
So I can let this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
To make up for an oversight,
Don’t we always get a second chance
To make everything just right?
There will always be another day
For me to say "I love you",
And certainly there's other chance
To say, “Is there anything I can do?"
But just in case I might be wrong
And today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
And I hope you don’t forget!
Tomorrow is not promised
to Young and old alike,
And today may be the last chance
You get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow
Why not do it ALL today?
For if tomorrow never comes
You'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
For a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
And you were too busy to grant someone
What turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today
And whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
And that you'll always hold them dear.
Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me"; "Thank you"; "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
You'll have no regrets about today! - Peggy Mullins
Sept 9th - Hi Jeff Honey. Just wanted to let you know that I miss you a lot. Now that Avery and Morgan have gone back to Pa. things are very quiet. They enjoyed my pictures of you and talked about you alot. Life Sharing is having a rememberance day this month and Sue (Hammoms) and I are going. I sent a picture along with a short remembrance to them so they can post it on their web site. Jesel seems to be doing good in school. His GiGi helps him with his writing even tho he HATES "homework". About 2 weeks ago I was out at "the house" and he was his normal Jeff Anthony self and being a clown. He acts and mimics you so much that I realize now how much of an influence you have on him. He is such a love. I watched your memorial video for the first time last week. It was hard but I made it through the whole video, but I didn't get to sleep until 3 AM. The last SRL race is coming up and I'll be there for you. Altamont's Late Model division is supposed to have a 76 lap main event in you honor. I can't wait to see Joey and Mike race. Take care of Bailey for me. I love you. Mom/Jesel's Nana - Josh Whitfield
Hey jeff its been nine months since you been gone today raced down at your home track today for the first time since you been gone, brought home my first victory at altamont raceway racing in your true memory and true flying colors having you in my memory 24-7 on and off the track. i thank you for looking over me each race night and keeping me safe. Jesel, Heard you started kindergarden very proud of you . Cindy, really really miss you i hear you are doing so good and keeping it up so strong. jeff i love you live in my thoughts the whole time I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!! ~JA76~ FO LIFE - Jerry Anthony
Jeff, well 9 months since you passed away. Still appreciate your dream visit you are doing for me. Your spiritual visits keep me on a more positive note. I still miss hearing from you and just talking about nothing in particular. When I really miss you I put in one of your tapes where you are being interviewed at Altamont. It makes me laugh hearing you studder and stammer thru your first interviews. I do not know if I can ever go back to Altamont again. The pain of and memories you not being there would be to great for me to bear.As you know Jesel has started kindergarden ( man am I getting old) it seems like yesterday he was born. Damn I wish I could just hear and see you one more time. I love you and miss you deeply and do not take things for granted like I used to. Wel that is enough missing and venting for now. You will always be in my thoughts and prayers everyday. Jay and Nathalie had their daughter on August 18th at 2:56 pm she weighed 6 lb. 11oz. and was 18 in. long. Really proud parents just like you and Cindy were. Well that is it for now. Keep on racing up there.
All my love, Dad (Pops ) - Jerry Anthony
Hi my son, well the surgery went great. Had the mitral valve repaired instead of replaced. Went in last Wednesday and came home Saturday. Healing up just fine but really sore rib cage. Thay also did some repairs to the heart and now I have a normal heart beat. I thought I would be really happy to get it out of my way but am having some downer days. I really appreciate your coming to me in my dreams before the surgery and telling me to just relax everything will be just peachy and my time to be with you was not here yet. Everything else is going great. Keep on driving it like you stole it.
All my love, Dad - Cindy
Here we are at 8 months since Jeff left us... Pictures of him surround us in our home. A day doesn't go by that I don't think of him. He'd be thrilled with me these days. I've spent more time fixing the garage than I have the house... Even textured and am working to paint all of the walls. I'm not so sure he'd liked the colors though. I've used left over paint from the house... :) I can still hear him complaining to me... He's still the number one racer when Jesel's playing with his cars... - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Hi my son, thanks for the visit the other night I needed to see you and talk to again. This Wednesday I am having my open heart surgery as we talked about. All should go well and I will be as good as new. Just a little more bionic. 8 months have passed by since you left us. I still can not get over really missing you. That is about it from here. Keep on racing. I love you with all my being , Dad - C. Kramm
Wow its been at least 6 years since I've raced at Altamont and although the track has changed and the improvments are really cool it just wasn't the same. We had a great weekend, got to see some long missed friends and run fast down the straights and through the corners. Stirred up some of the greatest memories I have of racing, mostly including the #76 car and team that truly pushed us to get better at what we were doing or be left behind!! Jeff I won a Dash and it was for you dude, I drove it like I stole it. CK - Joe Draper
hay Jeff, damn we miss you josh and i talk about you every day. it's hard to for get the times i came with josh to work on his car at your shop or when you would come up our track you would always look at my modified an try to help me get faster. an the days josh an i would spend at your shop, how you would always make fun of us an give me and josh a hard time about everything lol. well we really miss you and i speek for me and josh but we really looked up to you. if only i could be half the driver you are. but i try to do it BIG and always keep it Jeff Anthony style! JA76. - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Hi my son, it has been 7 months since you passed away. I still miss hearing your voice and being able to talk to you. I miss your smile, your everything is peachy, and your upset attitude when things are not going good, the look on your face on race day, washing the truck before we leave just you and me, the smile on your face when we talked about Jesel and Cindy. I miss the dreams I was having with and about you. As you can tell I just miss you.
All my love, Dad (Pops) - Cindy
Something kept bothering me today but I couldn't figure out what it was and then it hit me... today is 7 months since he left us. I still think about him all of the time and wonder why he had to leave... - Cyle Coatney
hey was up bro. sorry man i did not get to make it to you race i heard it was good. even though i was not there i was in idaho doing it true anthony style lighting off fireworks, there is not one day that passes that i wish you were still here to work on my car or make fun of me. you were one of the guys thats i looked up to. but sene you are not longer here to make some noies on the 4th i guess i will be taking that over for you. my car is about to be painted this weeken like you said money pit.well ill talk to you later bro
late - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Hi my son, well your first memorial race went off without a hitch. Madera raceway and SRL did a fine job.I held up pretty good most of the day. Joey again had the fastest time in the time trials as he came apssed the fiish line I stood up and yelled great job Jeff and then I caught myself and I started crying. When the race program satred I went over to the spectator side i went over to your race car and could still smell your inside it knocked me to my knees and I started crying again. Basically the majority of the family your moms side and mine was there to honor you and I was proud they all made there. As you saw. I gave a little speach at the SRL trailor and thanked all the drivers and Steve Fensler and the SRL crew for coming to the race and honoring you. Brefore the SRL race all the drivers came out on the the and they presented a checkered flag with all the drivers and SRL officials signatures on it and they gave me the 2005 SRL race season CD collection. Which I will cherish forever. After the presentation I went to the infield and broke down completely and so did the pitcrew. Joey is a great guy and friend and both crews did everything they could to help Cindy and I at every opportunity they could. Sean,Steve,Doug, Frankie and Mark were esecially helpful in getting me thru the day and all had great shoulders for me to cry on and to hug. Cindy and Jesel got to do a lap in the pace car and waved the checkered flag in your honor and your mom got to wave the green flag to start the race also in your honor. i can not see going to amny races with only your spirit there and I and the whole family will go to every memorial race that is put on for you. Everything as you would say is just peachy for now my angiogram showed no blockage and now I am just waiting to see the cardiologist to get the old ticker fixed. Well my son that is about it for now. I really miss you still everyday.Keep those dreams coming.
All My Love, Dad - Dave Massa
It feels like yesterday we were all walking into Mr. Minor’s ROP automotive machinist shop at Dublin High. I was a senior at Foothill and coming into Dublin was weird. The shop was awesome! I made new friends, Anthony Omo, (Omo where have you been!) Shawn Holifield, (Shut up Shawn) and of course Jeff Anthony (Anthony will you get over here…). He talked about this crazy project of stuffing a Pinto engine into a VW bug! I thought yeah right; I’ll believe it when I see it. Sure as hell later that year he showed up with it! Several tweaks later, that thing ran well and all the effort he put into it paid off. Why would anyone put all that time into a Bug? If you knew Jeff Anthony then you already know why. Because he could! It seems like yesterday but that was over 20 years ago, High school ended, life went on, I saw Jeff here and there at parties, at Carnegie, the parts store. The last time I saw him in person was at Round Table Pizza with Shawn, Ed and my wife at the time Edie. She was pregnant with Emily and they all wanted to get together and talk about old times. As always Jeff was the last to arrive, here he came; he looked exactly like he did 10 years earlier in Mr. Minor’s class! Same ole Jeff, total clown! Always talking about cars, his shop, racing, etc. After that my life changed and we totally fell out of contact. I always said I was going to go over to Altamont and watch him race just so I could visit and catch up after the races but I never did. Such a shame I live 10 minutes from the track. I kept up on his life through the internet, his website and the word of mouth. Numerous race wins, Championships, through it all he never seemed to change. For that matter from the pictures I’ve seen he didn’t age a bit.
Then yesterday I’m driving down 580 in Castro valley and I see a Tahoe with “In loving memory of Jeff Anthony #76” on the back window, I thought I was going to be sick. I found myself speeding up, I had to get home and on the net to see if it was true. It couldn’t be, it had to be someone else, Jeff Anthony something… No traffic, flew home, Castro Valley to Tracy in 15 minutes, push past everyone to the computer, Google Jeff Anthony and there it was, my heart sunk. As I read all the memorials, thoughts and prayers it made me realize one thing. Jeff lived the life we all wish we could. He did the things he loved everyday of his life, no regrets, no wait until I’m older and the kids are gone, nothing left to wonder what if? Even though I haven’t seen him in years I’ll miss reading about him and respect what he accomplished in life. God speed Jeff, say hi to Dale, Davey, Neil, Adam and Kenny. I’m sure you’ve already raced them all and are having the time of your life up there.
Cindy, you and your son Jesel are in my family’s prayers. Although we haven’t spoken in years, if you need anything please don’t hesitate to ask. I know if roles were reversed Jeff would do it for me.
Dave, Shannon, Sabrina, Savannah, & Emily Massa - Cindy
When someone is in your life day in and day out, year after year you truly don’t understand the impact they have on you until they’re gone. The good morning and goodbye kiss... the evening phone call… the presence at family functions… even the annoying behavior is missed... In my case the feeling of his absence didn’t hit right away. Yes, I missed him but I didn’t completely feel his loss until nearly seven months after his death… Saturday’s memorial race was the hardest day I have faced so far. Thankfully, Jesel and I were surrounded by friends and family. Unfortunately, they can never take the place of the one person that meant so much to the both of us. The races are just not the same without him. Well…life isn’t the same without him. Walking into the barn yesterday and seeing the race car that he put so much of himself into was another breaking point for me… He was that one strong person I thought would always be there… For those of you that didn’t make it Saturday here’s what I had to say… Thank you to Madera Speedway for putting together today’s events and for ensuring that 76’s memory will live on. This was a track Jeff enjoyed competing at and had hoped to conquer before he retired from racing. Thank you to SRL and especially Steve and Barbara Fensler for everything you’ve done for our family. Jeff respected you and loved to race in your series. A special thank you goes to the 92 car of Joey Zampa, his team, their sponsors and the remaining JA Racing team for running this season as a tribute to the late Jeff Anthony. It is such a special way to honor a true champion. And to Joey…if you’re going to drive it then Drive It Like You Stole It and make him proud! On and off the track the name Jeff Anthony meant something. If you knew him he was either your friend, your mechanic, your neighbor, the life of the party, the talk of the town, the clown in the pits, the driver you loved to hate, the driver you hated to love but to one little boy he was the world. Today is about remembering his world. But in the end don’t be sad he’s gone; smile because you knew him… - Tracy Christian (Step Sister)
Jeff, Happy Fathers Day! WOW that was a great memorail they had for you in Madera. You have so many friends and family that were there for you and love you so much. Just wanted to say I love you and Happy Fathers Day. Your in my toughts every day!! xoxoxoo - Jim, Lori, Mike and Brandon
What an honorable tribute to Jeff Anthony last night, on a warm fathers day eve in Madera, Ca. His #76 car sat parked idly and eerily like a strong sentry at the gates. Under the trees and watching over an event he loved so. His windscreen now reading "RIP" drew quiet and somber emotion from oldest son Mike and I. As if he were whispering to us, "every new day is a gift guys". I didn't know Jeff very well at all, but enough I think he would have been moved to see the images we witnessed last night. As we pulled into the parking lot a mezmorizing and riviting license plate from a rugged white chevy truck reading "MISMY76" jumped out at us. Or listening to Jeff's bride Cindi speak to us fans over the track p.a. about him with beatiful poise and great strength. Seeing there son Jessel with his mom travel the oval together on a SRL memorial lap. This while both holding up a keepsake sentimental checkered flag penned by all the SRL Drivers & Crews. Or maybe seeing the leader board lighting up the night sky with all bulbs glowing "76" during the warm up laps. Every fan there, on his or her feet, honoring his memory with caps removed during tribute lap 76. Night fell complete with the scents and sounds of high horsepower, smokin tire rubber and hi octane fuel moving thru the gentle breeze with old glory flowing in the backdrop. Yes, I dare say even Jeff with his race hardened competetive sneer & veneer would have said, "How bleeping peachy, all this for me? C"mon now, lets get to racing!!"
After a rough start for the tribute 92 car, Joey Zampa & team did a superb job battlin back all night long. Pit crew efforts were 2nd to no one, as they got right after it with early on challenges and repairs.
A sincere "Thank you" from this lone race fan to the caring staff at Madera Speedway for making it happen. It was a motivating tribute to a fine young man exemplifying what community is all about and it encouraged anyone with a heavy heart.
Lastly to Pops Anthony, as a dad myslef I can only imagine you are going to have some rough moments today. If you hit the rumble strip just know that the rest of us pops out here trying our darndest daily, sometimes at wits end, in getting em from kids to being good citizens...well, that you are also an inspiration to us on what a good dad is. You raised a hellavuh man there in Jeff and how very proud of him you must be today. Let that thought ease any pain and maybe even bring a peaceful smile over you. Every good wish to you and yours on this Fathers Day 2006 from the 76 fans here in Bakersfield, Calif. God bless #76
Jim McNally - Sean Holifield
Well Jeff it's been sometime now that you've been gone and we all miss you everyday of our lives. Steve made a comment the other day about how he begins to pick up the cell phone on the way home to call you and remembers that you're not here. I too do the same and always start to remember all the great times we had together and then become upset that you're not going to be with all of us to create all the new memories that the clan will create. I laugh everytime we start drinking and talking to Joey and the gang about all of our experiences together, man we did some stupid stuff. The racing so far this year has been full of highs and lows, the Shasta race was classic Jeff Anthony karma (I'm sure you were watching us and know what I mean). Madera went better, but yet again the Jeff Anthony karma happened! This weekend is your memorial race at Madera. I know you're wondering why Madera, the track we pretty much sucked at the worst next to Stockton, but they were the first track to bring up a memorial race and they have been awesome helping us get everything together. Altamont Raceway was bought by Kenny Sheppard and they never heard of you (I'm being nice!), so they didn't offer in the begining until they found out that Madera was doing it and then they figured they could sell more tickets! ( ouch!) Sorry, did I say that out loud? ( The opions of this writer are that of his own and in no way express the opinions of the rest of the Jeff Anthony clan nor it's affiliates - sorry legal stuff you know). Anyhow, it should be a great tribute to you.
You remember Kelly (Allan's wife). Well her dad past away this past Monday morning with brain damage caused by a motorcycle accident and was in a similar state like yourself for about a week. If you see him up there let him know Allan will take good care of Kelly, Kenny and their mom, Kathy. Since you've been gone (which has greatly affected my life),I've noticed how people keep moving on like nothing has ever happened. You wonder why the world doesn't stop moving to mourn the ones we lost, but I know everyone will eventually experience this in their lifetime. Sorry for the mumbo jumbo. Well take care my friend and keep a eye out for big Kenny ( big guy 6'5" 220lbs) and give him a huge hug for all of us down here. Love your friend Sean. - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Hi Jeff, thanks for the visit the other night. I wish we could just sit down and talk. Everyday I think about you. I am going to have heart surgery before the end of this month.
Your mean wicked stepmother and myself will be at your memorial race. Looking forward to see the guys. I am really nervous about seeing your car and Joey's at the track. I think there will be a lot of your fans at the track to salute you. I know you will be there to see it and will be wondering what the big deal is. Will talk to you later. I miss you with all my heart. This wound I feel will never heal.
All My Love, Dad (Pops) - Cindy
Jeff's 1st Annual Memorial Race is June 17th at Madera Speedway. - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Hi Jeff,well it has been 6 months since you passed away. I am so glad we are still having conversations in my dreams. I sure hope that we can continue visiting with each other, until we meet at that track you are racing at now. Marsha and I went up north to visit all our family, but I got sick up there and did not get to see Jesel. I am at home now and will be seeing my regular doctor and my heart doctor this week I hope. Dam I miss you. Will be at your Memorial race at Madera on June 17th, I am really nervous about seeing Joey's and your car there. I have asked that I be allowed to drive your car on the track that day. I have am down to 165 lb. so I am lighter than you and can fit in your seat now.How about that a skinny Dad.
Scott has now settled down at your Mom's and is doing great now. His two daughters are coming out to stay with him for a couple of months.Well that is about it for now. Keep on driving it like you stole it.
All My love, Dad (Pops) - Cindy
May 27, 2006 - Six months today... - Cindy
November 20, 2005, the night of the accident, life as I’d known ended. Here we are nearly 6 months later and I’m still trying to pick up the pieces and move on. Until I get through all of the ‘firsts’ I’m not sure that I’ll be able to fully move on with the new life Jesel and I have been forced to make for ourselves… I thought Jeff’s birthday and Valentine’s Day were rough. They were nothing compared to the first race at Shasta. I remember the conversation with the team about not making Joey’s car look just like Jeff’s but some how it ended up that way… On the track it was eerie. I (as well as most everyone else there) thought for sure Joey was going to bring home the trophy in Jeff’s honor. As luck would have it he was put back to the back of the pack for a simple rule that no one really ever thought about before… Race night ended similar to how it ended so many times with Jeff on the track. It ended with feelings of excitement, disappointment, anger and happiness to have the car and driver all in one piece. In the pits, after the race it was as though I was waiting for him but he never came… Reality finally set in and the break down happened. I don’t think I really believed everything that had happened until that night. You don’t what you have until it’s gone…That saying pops into my head often these days. I took so many things for granted before. I took him for granted… Not sure if he’s messing with us now… but things have begun to break… Our well went bad, the shop truck lost an alternator, the weed whacker won’t start, the lawn mower works in slow motion, my quad stopped working and Jesel’s doesn’t stay running… All of these things Jeff would have fixed without batting an eye, all except for the well… I’m learning to appreciate, accept and love the simple things in life… a little boy’s smile with his missing tooth, thoughts of things his dad used to say, a beautiful day, and the jack rabbits in the yard… I’m learning to believe in another saying… Don’t be sad because it’s over. Smile because it happened. - Tracy Christian
Hey Bro!
Whats up?? I just wanted to say I miss ya very much! I still can not believe you are gone. Everyday I look at this website and stil cant believe my big brother is gone. When mom and dad told me that they were coming home from Jays house around the time of quaifing (where everyone was for Shasta) they heared the song "We are champions" I broke down in tears! when they told me this. I miss ya BIG time. I also love you and I know that I never told you this but I am so glad that I had you as a big brother!! I am looking forward to the good times to come. Love you lots even though I am a "Step" your always going to be my Big Brother!! Love you Bro xoxooxox - Chrissy (Jersey) Patch
Cindy - I just wanted to let you know that I think of you and Jesel often. I can't believe it's been 5 months since Jeff passed away. I'm glad that you're in the house. BTW - I came across the Christmas card the other day when I moved into my new office. It's the one you sent when you guys were all sitting in front of it. I just got the biggest kick out it and must have brought it in to show everyone at work. What an accomplishment moving an entire house. Send pics when you can. I would love to see the finished product. Tell Sean, Wendy, Steve, Kathleen and everyone I said HI. I miss you. Don't forget the invitation is still open if you and Jesel want to come to Texas for a visit! Love ya! - Jerry Anthony
Hi Jeff,well this is the first race of the season the crew is up at Shasta. Keep a eye for Joey and give them a helping hand to the win. Could not make the race. We were pulling into the garage this afternoon and We Are the Champions was playing on the radio. Started crying and could not stop. I know the other day you hold me not to worry that you are fine and watching over Cindy and Jesel but damn I miss you. Trying to watch your old Altamont videos and getting a couple laughs out of it. You always look so at ease making your passes and I can tell you are loving every minute of it. Well that is about it for now. Talk to you soon
All My Love, Dad (Pops) - Peggy Mullins
It's April 28th, just one day past the "5 month anniversary" of your passing. Another week of being depressed. Jeff "honey", I just can't keep you out of my mind. I'm not going to the race @ Shasta, but maybe once I go to a few of the other SRL races I'll get better. Who knows!! I want to let you know that my bunko friends gave me a memory stone for the yard. I'll have Scott help me put it in the right spot in the yard and plant a few plants next to it that you wouldn't be allergic to, okay? The crew is at Shasta as I write this note so you better keep an eye on them and make sure they have the right set-up on your car and guide Joey to victory lane. Love you a bunch, Mom. - Joanne
I can't believe it's 5 months already. I just read Cindy, Sean and Pops posts, & each one got me teary. I know these last months have been the most difficult for any of you to go thru, but I wanted to say I'm so proud to see how a certain group of people have all pulled closer and tighter because of this - both for Cindy & Jesel, but also for each other in friendship. You select few know who you are - no names should be necessary. Jeff - you would be so proud of your family & friends! We totally miss you and think about you all the time. OK - I need to insert a little humor here: my "Service engine soon" light is on in the 'Burb, and it lurches on acceleration. Any way you can send John-boy a sign as to what the H##L is up with that?! Anyway - keep watch over the guys this weekend @ Shasta - they'll need a little of that JA attitude!! :-) - Cindy
April 27th, 2006.. It's been 5 months since Jeff left us. He has yet to leave my thoughts. I miss his smile, his touch, his humor and most of all his clear view on life... I’m realizing how much I depended on him for so many things. I still wait for him to come home every night… Jesel told me the other day that when we get to Heaven we’re going to yell at daddy for riding his quad that way… It made me laugh and cry at the same time. As Sean said this weekend is going to be full of tears and a whole new set of emotions but we’ll get through it together. - Jerry Anthony
Well my son her we are at 5 months after your passing away. It seems like yesterday I was at your Little League games and umpiring when the ump did not show up or there to watch your soccer games when I could or helping deliver your paper route so you could come over to the house for the week end.
I was dreaming last night about you and your first win at Altamont when the cars in front of you all got in a accident and just as they parted you drove thru for the win. The guys are going to Shasta for their first race. Thanks for the nice conversation last night about life. You were so positive but yet sad about Cindy and Jesel and wished that you could be there for them but that you will always be with them in spirit and protect them at all times. You gave me a big hug and told me not to be sad anymore and that you are doing just peachy and kicking some ass on the track up there.
I know Joey will do a great job this year to keep your spirit alive on and off the race tracks. Sean and the guys are going to Shasta and I hope all goes well for them and that it is not to sad for them. Well my son I will talk to you another day. Keep on driving it like you stole it. I miss you.
Cindy and Jesel smile you are being loved by me.
All my love,Dad (Pops) - Sean Holifield
Well my friend once again I find myself facing the fact that your not with us anymore. awhile ago I told you we were working on a program to go racing in your memory. Well the friday before you past my self ,Steve,Anthony,Mark,Doug,and Franky went to get some drinks ( I know crazy us drinking! who knew?) We decided that our last season with you wasn't how we would want you to be rememberd.( please excuse my spelling Wendy is still sleeping) So we thought of someone who you and us respected as driver and a friend to race one last time with your colors and memory and we all came up with Joey Zampa. Beside the fact that we pitted next to them every race and they always ate our tri-tip and swallowed all our Coors Light we had! We knew Joey would be the best to keep your racing spirit alive. You would be proud of how both teams have come together to make this happen. So this weekend is our first race at Shasta and I'm sure it's going to be a cry fest but I know that Joey and all of us will give it everything we have to kick some ass and keep your name out there for many races to come. I would trade all of this and more to see your ugly face on friday at practice but I've had to come to face the fact that your not going to be there in person but I know you'll be there in spirit!
Be a good spotter for Joey this weekend and look for me looking up at you when we take the checker flag!
love your friend
Sean - Jim McNally
Spring Break, Pismo Beach, Oceano dunes...Brandon and I spent his week off there. On a beautiful afternoon we found a quiet corner of the park between dunes, ocean, sun & sky. Our solemn prayers for healing, happiness and well being go out to Cindi, Jessel, Pops and entire race family. God Bless 76 - Cindy
I would like to clarify some of the rumors flowing out there. Zampa did not absorb Jeff's sponsors or his team. JA Racing felt that Jeff Anthony, a four time champion, deserved more than a single race to honor him. Joey, the team owner, the 92 crew and sponsors were asked if they would participate in a tribute season because Jeff respected and enjoyed competing with them. JA Racing's sponsors have also contributed to the tribute season. The two teams have become one and Joey's car is painted a special scheme to honor the infamous 76 driver. I for one am looking forward to a positive season for the new team and a special way to honor Jeff... - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Hi Jeff, been watching some of your old races from Altamont finally able to watch them and just laugh at some of your first interviews from there. I sure do miss you. I sure do wish I could just pick up the phone and just shot the shit. You would tell me everything is just peachy. Your first race this last weekend was cancelled and postponed to the 15th. We will not be there and the next race we will make is your memorial race on June 17th.
I can not wait to see Joey Zampa's car with part of your paint job on it. He picked up most of your sponsors, which is great.Cindy had some cars amde up to look just like your racecar, so I sent Uncle Bruce and Uncle Dave one for their birthdays. Taht is about it for now talk to you again real soon. Smile you are being loved by me.
All my love, Dad - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Really sorry the race has been cancelled. I will not be able to be there on April 15th. The next race we will be up for is Jeff's memorial race on June 17th. Was really hoping to relieve all my fretting over going back to the races. Oh well.
Pops - Cindy
Bummer about the race be cancelled and rescheduled... - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Well 4 months have gone by. I can not believe it. I am doing better misiing Jeff, but still have my dreams and night sweats.
I have had a couple of good talks in my dreams with him and have woken up with a good smile on my face. Marsha just looks at me and says I see you had a good dream. Going to the first race this coming weekend. I am still apprehensive about doing it but the pit crew will be there so that will be great. See you are the race. To Cindy and Jesel smile you are being loved.
Pops Anthony - Joanne
Hi neighbor! Today marks the 4th month that you have been gone & boy do I miss you! I miss looking out our kitchen window & seeing you in the mornings before work; I miss seeing you work on the house (however, it's finally finished, & I know if you were still here, it would have been the never ending project - HA!) and my poor Suburban needs some JA attention!
Your hot-office-babe and you son are all moved in to the house, and I think they are settling in pretty well. Jesel is just such the little man - a total "Mini-Me" of you!
I do have to say - at Cindy's expense! - that the day she got the truck stuck in the mud, John & I had a good laugh watching them try to get it out, and thinking of all the colorful things you would have been saying!!
Anyway - just wanted to acknowledge the day & say how greatly you are missed! - Cindy
Four months today... - Cindy
Yes, he would have laughed his butt off! Luckily, John was there to remind me what Jeff would have said... Oh and he was there to help since Jeff would have been too busy yelling at me for being an idiot-stick... - Laura Bakanoff
Fruity.. My truck needs you! Missing you tons.. - Cyle Coatney
dam jeff you have alot of shit. this weeken we we out the the shop and hleped cindy moves some stuff out the garage and into the shop. jeff you would of laughed your ass off when cindy got the truck stuck it was kinda funny so then we had to get the other truck and pull her out. you would of killed us we blew up the little 90 so now we have to go out and and fix it!! - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Well the start of a new race season is only three weeks away. I am very nervous about going ,but the whole JARacing pit crew is going and it will be nice to see them all again. It will be a weird feeling going to the track and not see Jeff and get my hug and to be able to just talk. I still think of him everyday in one way or another. Some days I cry and some days i laugh. I have been watching some of his old races from Altamont and for the most part I just laugh at all the great times we had there. I really enjoy some of his interviews. I do wish I had the DVD's of him racing in SRL but I never bought any of them and I regret it deeply that I did not do it. Cindy and Jesel are in the house now and when Marsha and I stopped by to see her and she had the biggest smile on her face that I have not seen in a long long time. Congratulations Cindy on finally getting back to your own home. We had a blast with Jesel and just went to MacDonald's and played air hockey and he just ran all over the gym set there.
Can not wait to play and see him again. See you all at the race April 1st.
love Pops - Cindy
Three months now… Sadness, guilt, tears and such are still around. There’s not a moment that goes by when I don’t think of him. Jesel and I talk about him often and we’ve both had our own set of crying spells, his fewer than mine. He’s a strong little guy and does rather well when he sees his mom crying. He’s given me many hugs and tells me often that everything is going to be okay. He’s even said we’ll see daddy again someday… He’s also expressed some concern about who’s going to teach him to build his racecar when he gets older… Just like his dad! Thank you for all of your love and support! A light is finally showing on our lives… He and are I about to move in to the house Jeff and I started together. We’re only waiting for power now. I hope that the healing process will begin once we’ve started our own special routines in our new home. I know Jesel will do well because he’s already made friends in the neighborhood. I think he’ll be like his dad and he won’t have too many problems making and keeping friends…and will probably have a line of people to help him race if that's what he chooses to do. - Peggy Mullins
February 18th - Well, I just read "Nae's" note and the tears started up. It always breaks my heart to hear stories of Jeff and how good he was as a father to Jesel. My other son, Scott, returned home last Saturday. His new car loaded to the roof with all his possessions. He's somewhat settled in now. Had to have an emergency root canal the second day he was here, but is doing fine. He's looked into 2 jobs so far and has helped me alot around the house with my "honey do" projects. He even installed his theater sound system in my livingroom - I tried to tell him that my t.v. sounded just fine the way it was. It's getting close to moving in time at "the house" in Byron. Maybe next week-end if the inspections go well this week. I know that Jesel can't wait to sleep in his new room. I'm guessing that Scott and I will go out to help move and organize things if she needs us. Thank you all again for your support and kind words. - Renee aka Nae
As I was getting my kids and my daycare kids ready for school today and making sure everyone had all of their stuff they needed for their Valentine's parties Jeff came across my mind. Last year on Valentine's Day Jesel was having a party at his pre-school. (Every morning it was Jeff's job to get Jesel to where ever he was going for the day.) I remember Cindy calling me to let me know Jesel would be late because him and his dad were driving to Livermore and right before they had arrived in Livermore they had realized they had forgotten his Valentine's cards(or Cindy called to ask if they had them and then they realized..I don't remember that part)so Jeff turned around and went all the way back to Byron to get Jesel's Jeff Gordon Valentine's cards so he would have them for his party. Cindy and I were talking smack and said it would have been cheaper to go to Wal Mart to buy new ones. Oh well...Anyways....I know Jeff had a reputation of a smart ass, hard ass, etc....BUT he was such a good dad....Jesel had softened him aroung the edges and Jesel absolutley adored his father....it still very much saddens me that Jesel has been cheated of his father. I guess no one knows what life holds for us or what will happen tomorrow. We all need to step back a minute and realize the blessings we have.....we all get caught up in the hustle and bustle of this rat race we all live and all of the material things we want and think we need to have.....and someday when we are gone none of that will really matter. What everyone remembers and talks about is what kind of person you were and the relationships and good times you had with your family and friends. Spend time with the people who are important in your lives especially your kids.....you only get one chance at life....follow your heart!!! - Dianne (aka Loser) Santos
Hey Jeff! Well, a couple months have gone by and still no reprieve from missing you! Rick and I took off over this past weekend, just to escape reality for a couple days at DisneyLand and while we were driving down 99, we came to the Lerdo Highway exit and a flood of tears came without warning. All the fun memories of the Bakersfield weekends hit me like a rock! It's funny how you think you're doing ok and then BAM, something hits you like a ton of bricks and there come the tears again. It still amazes me how someone can touch your life so deeply without you really even realizing it. Just makes you cherish life that much more everyday and to make every minute as positive and fun as possible. Still missin ya...Love D - Jim Miller
I came across Jeff's story when I was reading about the Jason Baldwin tragedy. Racing, riding, and flying are dangerous activities. I am an active racing fan and Dirt Bike/ATV rider in Colorado, and was touched by Jeff's story. We do not understand why God chooses to take these great champions from us, but somehow we must accept that it happens. I just wanted you to know that Jeff's story DOES mean alot to others even hundreds of miles away, and I pray that you will only think of the good memories and be able to Ride On !!! - Sean Holifield
Well my friend im sitting at my computer at 1:40am thinking about you (hella gay I know)and how much I miss you. I've had a tree sitting on my side yard that I got for your birthday that I've been telling Cindy for about a week that Im going to plant for you on the property ( hella gay I know) but Jesel and Cindy are going to need the shad and it should help as a wind block just in case it ever gets windy out there! But just like everything else since you left us, I find my self keeping so busy trying to not have time to sit and think about everything that has happen. Today I broke down crying without warning and later to find out that your dad had left a message on our answering machine wanting to talk made me get up at this time and realize I need to make time to slow down and take everything in that has happen and to keep in check how much life is very short. This all may not come out making much sense but Wendy is sleeping so she wont be able to spell check for me. Jesel and Cindy are doing good as to be expected , Cindy is one tough gal and Jesel is going to be just like you, you know hard headed and set in his ways! I got a new tattoo on my left arm to remind me of you it has the 76 number on top of two racing flags and on top it has R.I.P and underneath it has your name just like it showed on the race car. Speaking of the car we have a cool deal working on for this year that I cant tell you about right now but later when things get worked out. The house is almost done and ready for Cindy and Jesel to get moved in. I know Cindy cant wait to get in and on with life, you would be proud of us we have been closer this past few months than in the last 13 years I think we both put our opions aside when this happened to you and realized whats realy important. Ive also seen what you have seen in her all along and I'm glad we are good friends now and like I told you a couple of months ago I'll take care of her and Jesel like they were family because they are to me and so are you. I think that why I'm having such a hard time because we have been friends for such a long time and allways will. Well It's been about a hour since I started writing and I'm sure my spelling is not getting any better so I'm going to give your dad a call today and probaly cry somemore but thats ok I think that is what I need to do. Take care my friend I will talk to you soon.
love Sean - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
well 2 months since Jeff passed away.I dream about him almost every night and wake up in cold sweats. Marsha wakes me up some night because I am talking to him in my sleep and swearing. I wish there was someway I could take away the pain for Cindy. I feel helpless. I walk by the pictures we have of Jeff,Cindy and Jesel and miss being able to just pick up the phone and just talk. I do not cry the way I was but the thoughts and pain still are the same as when this all first started. To Cindy and Jesel I love you. - jaracing
Yes, tomorrow is two months since Jeff left. Every morning I wake up and hope it was all a nightmare. I hope that when I open my eyes I’ll see him sleeping next to me because, as was often the case, I fell asleep before he got home from working late on the race car, the house or his last obsession of sand rails… I drove the Kodiac to work today and it was extremely hard. It reminds me of him in so many ways and I wasn’t ready for the onslaught of emotions. I can still hear him telling me how cool it was and how we should get rid of the other truck then I could just tow the boat with that. I remember when I said he was nuts he told me that we’d be the coolest chicks ever pulling up in the Kodiac and the guys would be all over us. I remember laughing at him and telling him that he’d lost it but he still insisted that it was really cool. I still don’t understand his feelings about it but it can still make me laugh. I go through days of feeling like I should be crying but can’t. I go through days of crying and feeling like I’ll never stop and days of guilt because I am here and he’s not. Days of thinking that he was the better parent and seemed to always know what to say and do with our son. I go through days of wondering what I’m suppose to be doing, wondering if I’m selling and keeping the right things, wondering if I’m moving on too fast, if I’m teaching Jesel the way he would want me to, if I’ll ever be okay again and always wondering why he left. I still grab the phone to call him on a daily basis. There are so many unanswered questions and even more foreign emotions. There are books on grief but where’s the manual? I could really use one. It’s hard for me to go on as everyone else has… or as it appears they have… I’m having trouble understanding why life never even skipped a beat for his loss. I still have a few friends that call me a couple of times a week to check on us. And when it’s clearly not a good day for me there’s a couple that will do most anything (and do) to make me smile… I’m thankful for them and the innocence of a four year old. - Bones
Jeff- Just want to thank you for being my guardian angel during the big crash! I know you were there looking out for me as you always did when you were here. Cindy says you were the one who kept me from being hit by semi trucks as I was spinning across two lanes of traffic! I say you are the one who made it so I walked away from a totaled vehicle. I keep hearing you laughing and calling me an "idiot stick" for crashing. I keep picturing that look on your face that says "Ok dumb ass...what were you thinking?" When I am looking at new cars, I hear you nagging at me asking why I need this or that in the car. Jeff, just know that I appreciate all you have done for me over the years and what you are still doing for me now. I miss you more every day. - Peggy Mullins
It's January 23rd so this Friday will be 2 months since Jeff left us to the oval track up above. On Jeff's birthday Cindy and I went to the social security office (a 2 hour wait I might add)and then on to The Oasis - Cindy got a facial and I got a much needed massage. That was our treat in Jeff's honor. I thoroughly enjoyed the get together in Livermore that night. Even tho I was going to have a "drink", (which Cindy couldn't wait to see) I had my usual diet coke - am I boring or what?
Jesel is doing fantastic and we have nice visits when we are together. He talks about his daddy constantly and always remembers to let me know that he's still racing with Dale Sr. and beats him every race. I sure wish I could be as innocent as he is. It sure would make my days go a little easier. My son Scott has made a big decision to move back to California (now lives in Pa.) and without his daughters. I'm excited and yet sad that he won't be able to see the girls very often. Hopefully we can have them for the summer months and at Christmas and New Year. He's driving his new Envoy to Southern Calif to see his dad for a day or so (I guess) and then head for Dublin to settle in with me for awhile and look for a job. He's been working for a cold pack company driving a fork-lift and doing warehouse work so if anyone out there knows of an opening in the bay area (preferably close to Dubln) let me know. On another note-I received a card from a Jim & Pam Garcia, no return address but I noticed that they had put a message on this web site. I don't know who you are and would like to know how you know Jeff and if maybe I had met you once and forgot about it. My address is BLACKBAILEY@COMCAST.NET. Since the family has basically no idea who has contributed to the trust fund I would like to personally thank those of you who will made it possible for Jesel and Cindy to have the things that they will need now and in the future. Love and hugs to everyone. Jeff's mom, Peggy - Cyle Coatney
happy b-day bud, by could i use you right now i need some spark plug wires cut and some other shit but manly you to bug the shit out of i guess we might be moving to idaho you know us rednecks so i am going to have to go out to your new place a few times a check it out and see what the little one is up to and bug cindy about driving your chevelle she is stubbern just like you well off to work on the car like you always say never fukin ending story
later bud - Jerry Anthony (Pops)
Well today is Jeff's birthday. Happy birthday my son.
Just wishIcould have just a couple of minutes to give him a hug and tell him that I love him and have him give me a hug back and tell me that he loves me. The last time I got one of those hugs was at the last race at Bakersfield.
I missed his phone call to my house the afternoon of the night of the accident at Glamis. I was asleep and Marsha (mean wicked step mom) got to talk to him. I was so tired from stil
battling this damn cancer I did not even hear the phone ring. This will eat at me everyday forever. Marsha talked to him and tried to get him to stop by on his way to Glamis but in usual Jeff fashion he was real rush to get the park to setup camp before dark. He said he was really looking forward to coming to the house for Thanksgiving and would see us then.Sometimes in your life you have no control over what happens and this was one of those times. I talk
to him everyday and tell him how much I love him and will see him one of these days at the big racetrack in heaven. To all of you who have helped Cindy and Jesel I will be eternally greatful. You all are true friends and I will love you forever. To Cindy and Jesel smile you are being loved by us. - Laurie Moilanen
Happy Birthday Jeff. It was the first thing I thought of this morning when I got up. Here's one to you! Miss you lots. - Joanne
Well, I'm sitting here at work thinking about Jeff today - today would have been his 37th birthday. Happy b-day, dude! I know some of us are getting together tonight to have a drink...or two or three...in his honor, but I couldn't stop myself from sending a birthday wish from here. The last 2 months have been so sad, and my hope is that every one of Jeff's family and extensive network of friends and fans are finding your own way of working though the loss of such an awesome person. He would be so proud! The Byron house, "Anchor Acres" is almost ready for Cindy & Jesel to move into...finally! The paint & trim are all done outside, & the inside is near completion. Hopefully only a couple more weeks before a move-in date! A fabulous group of people came together for Cindy to make getting the house done a reality - too many names to list, but you know who you are. The crew has supported Cindy so much in everything - house, shop, etc., and I hope you all know just how much you are appreciated by her. Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Jeff, happy birthday to you! We love you & miss you! - Dianne (aka Loser) Santos
Wow, it's been over a month now and I still can't take your damn number out of my phone. When I scroll to find someone's number I always pass 'Dickhead'. I even got a new one and had to transfer your number over. Yours and Grandma's, who died just a couple weeks after you. It's weird to me how you can know in your head that someone is gone, but yet find it so hard to let go and move forward. Life goes on, each day comes and goes, but that portion of life is still kinda in pause...waiting for them to show up, call or something. I can still see you lying in the hospital bed, can hear your voice talking to me, giving me shit for this or that, picking Jesel up at my place on your way home, complaining you have to stop but being SO excited to see your little man! You are my big brother, always telling me how it is and steering me in the right direction in life. I knew you would always give it to me straight, whether it was what I wanted to hear or not...you would tell me point blank when I was wrong. I'll miss the funny times too. Breakfast on Sunday with you, Cindy and Jesel, the parties where you and I danced almost all night long (you were such a GREAT drunk dancer!!!), the smacks on the ass and of course the nicknames. I'll never forget a couple of years ago when I went through a pre-midlife crisis and cut my hair super short. You started calling me butch. You tried dike but said it just didn't fit. I was thankful for that! The sexy or hot mama you always seemed to call me when you had someone else in the truck when picking up Jesel, you LOVED to embarass me anytime you had the chance! Jeff - I really miss you alot. Cloe still cries for her Uncle Jeff. We'll never forget the times we've shared, nor the fortune of having you as such a big part of our lives! Love you! - Tim Eoff
Angie is right. I've learned that someone only dies if you don’t talk about him or her. In the next couple of weeks I will tell my stories of Jeff and what he meant to me. I would like to hear any stories that someone might have. - Let's tell some stories about the Good Ole Boy!!
It is starting to get a little bit slow on here lets keep Jeff's memories goin for the friends,family,and loves ones.I know there are lots of good memories and good ole stories to tell so let's share them. Well here goes one of my fond memories with Jeff. We had just finished his motor for the Chevelle and he was picking it up that morning I gave him so much shit that he would never put that thing back together and it would sit.... Well I won't use the exact words he told me but it went like this my shit ain't gonna sit around like your shit I get my shit done.... I don't mess around I'll have this thing in and runnin in a couple of days....sure you will Jeff.. well he loaded that thing up and within a couple a days I mean 2 to be exact I showed up at the shop about 6 am and there he was in the Chevelle smilin at me with that shove it up your you know what grin....well he fired it up and next thing you know I was'nt even out of my car he had that thing on the line lock buzin it to about 3500 rpm burnin the tires like he was at Sac Raceway for about 2 mins he let of that thing like he was gonna back up in his tracks and launch it....right in front of the shop..right where the customers opened the door to walk in for info.. there were two huge black dug in the ground for life burn out marks... it was pretty cool..well he talked a bunch of shit and told me I told you so..well about 15 mins later Grumpy Ole Fart came in a.k.a Dave and he was yellin at Jeff he was so mad and of course Jeff blamed the whole thing on me and said I antagonized him to do it.. so then we were both getting yelled at he was ticked...me and Jeff were laughing...but I did get in trouble..so Jeff went up stairs as he always did to work on all his projects and it was my time to get him back...so I popped the hood pulled the coil wire off closed the hood and went back to work..Jeff came down about 1 hour later and said tell Grumpy Ole Fart to chill out.. I'm goin to work he laughed and smirked at me and said I'll see ya later..he went out to the Chevelle rurururururururururu for about min it seemed like... he stops and turns it over again rururururururururu h
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